on my mind the constant feeling of you you enjoyed drifting far I stayed here lonely in the bathroom hunched over the toilet to let tears fall using the water drips from the sink as peace while I scream in my head 100 and 44 … Continue reading Rewiring a Heart Drawing
Like a glass that is half empty, half full, so is the heart that lies within. The malnourished heart and soul that lacks so much continues to draw from others for energy and love. The broken soul that continues to dip into other sources to compensate for all it never received only breaks more. The … Continue reading Fill Me
From you, she drew it all. She took a deep breath and drew you into herself. From you, she was able to be all she envisioned From you, she grew. When she could not make the climb, it was you she clung to. She held onto you for her life. Then you let her down. … Continue reading You were not the end.
Am I a woman if I care for you? If I cater to your every need and bow down to you--worshiping you. If I instead chose to align you into the proper position of power does that make me a woman? If I stand up for myself and know how to refrain from your control … Continue reading What Makes Me
Accelerate so you can ruin everything faster. Slowly point and aim so you will not miss. Allow me to serve as your target guiding you towards what you need to pierce. Perforate me with your words. The same words that bound us in lies, allow them to disclose the truth. Embrace the feeling of death. … Continue reading Let me be your target.
You were once the most beautiful thing I knew then your beauty aged and I opened my eyes to your true self. You were once so kind then you placed your problems on my shoulders for me to bear. You were once all for me then you got tired of one form so you went … Continue reading What Was Once
Depression is not a choice. One does not wake up and decide to no longer be depressed. One who is depressed often wakes up and feels as if they have nothing to live for--feels as if there is nothing that will excite them or make them happy. All of the things in their life that … Continue reading For those who understand.
The dissociation of you and your habitual tendencies assists in eluding my mind from negativity. Your obsessive behavioral patterns would extract all life and spirit from anything you were close to. Now, there is nothing to suppress me from conquering the inner demons you brought upon me.
I sit and wonder how I could be so oblivious to some things. I am oblivious out of love. If I feel some way for you, it will not be shaken so easily. For me to actually, finally realize that something is unhealthy and it is time to let it go takes so much from … Continue reading I am enough.
Like clockwork, you come back. The hands turn and right when the peak of the hour is about to be reached, I fall again. Just as I am reaching the end, I am drawn back to. With haste, I am ready to allow you to be my hands--the hands that guide my direction and control … Continue reading Clockwork