My mind is yearning for a reason to see the good in you--to forgive you. I am the one facing the repercussions of your love. You are toxic and have continued to degrade me even after losing me. You lost me. I did not push you away. Not once. Your heart is not pure, yet mine … Continue reading Separation


Stage Two

The worst part about losing you is how my heart is now annihilated and I have no one who understands what I am feeling. You were a part of me. You were my person and now I feel so alone. No matter the circumstances, you were always there to talk if I needed you. I … Continue reading Stage Two

Build me up just to break me down.

No matter how devoted and faithful I was, that was never enough for you. The pain of this does not even derive from your absence. This pain has occurred from the humiliation and destruction of my dignity that you have caused. You are the source of this. You had someone who was yours in front … Continue reading Build me up just to break me down.

You Show No Love

While you are out at night, I am at home rotting in my thoughts. You are out doing as you wish and I sit here thinking about you. I think about how I will get through this hard time you have brought upon me. You still have friends who think you are an amazing person. … Continue reading You Show No Love

Living with Anxiety

"Oh you're just overthinking." "Stop worrying for no reason." "Why does that bother you?" Having anxiety is not a choice. You do not get to choose when the transition to panic mode will be made--causing you to feel as if you are being hunted down and singled out. You can not wake up and turn off the anxiety switch for the day. … Continue reading Living with Anxiety

For You, You Bastard

Thank you for always allowing me to feel like shit at the end of the day. Thank you for pushing me around and walking over me like I was just some source that fed and satisfied your prideful, oblivious mind. You have succeeded in becoming a terrible person. You should feel good about yourself now, … Continue reading For You, You Bastard