From you, she drew it all. She took a deep breath and drew you into herself. From you, she was able to be all she envisioned From you, she grew. When she could not make the climb, it was you she clung to. She held onto you for her life. Then you let her down. … Continue reading You were not the end.
Accelerate so you can ruin everything faster. Slowly point and aim so you will not miss. Allow me to serve as your target guiding you towards what you need to pierce. Perforate me with your words. The same words that bound us in lies, allow them to disclose the truth. Embrace the feeling of death. … Continue reading Let me be your target.
Depression is not a choice. One does not wake up and decide to no longer be depressed. One who is depressed often wakes up and feels as if they have nothing to live for--feels as if there is nothing that will excite them or make them happy. All of the things in their life that … Continue reading For those who understand.
As one would awake from a deep sleep--dazed and confused, my mind tends to wander with no apparent destination like one who has been revived. It wanders in search of affirmation and explanation as to why I am misunderstood. The metamorphosis that has taken place in my life goes unnoticed. With all that is heavy … Continue reading Metamorphosis
My insecurities are longing to be caressed by your demonic touch--to feel your evil pleasure. Your condemned spirit brings my soul joy. Your darkest places allot for a search to find pure love.
I am no longer in your grasp for you to claim that you love me. I no longer have to conform to your behavior and destructive mannerisms. I am no longer a possession of yours to be used then tossed out. Your hysterical mind has always tried to dominate situations. Control is all you know. Our … Continue reading You Hurt
Night nears and my breathing slows. With the darkness comes isolation. Desolate feelings fall upon me. The kindred spirits who accompany me during the day vanish. Bleak lands creep into my dreams. I awake feeling deprived. You have denied me love. You have left me denude of all feelings. The night which was once meant … Continue reading The Dawn of Night
My mind is yearning for a reason to see the good in you--to forgive you. I am the one facing the repercussions of your love. You are toxic and have continued to degrade me even after losing me. You lost me. I did not push you away. Not once. Your heart is not pure, yet mine … Continue reading Separation
The worst part about losing you is how my heart is now annihilated and I have no one who understands what I am feeling. You were a part of me. You were my person and now I feel so alone. No matter the circumstances, you were always there to talk if I needed you. I … Continue reading Stage Two
No matter how devoted and faithful I was, that was never enough for you. The pain of this does not even derive from your absence. This pain has occurred from the humiliation and destruction of my dignity that you have caused. You are the source of this. You had someone who was yours in front … Continue reading Build me up just to break me down.