Emotional abuse is often overlooked because it shows no damaging outward signs. No one on the outside can see how it is actually affecting your mind and everyday life. If you have not been in this position, you have no clear idea of how it hurts and damages you. No one chooses to go through … Continue reading Abuse
Depression is not a choice. One does not wake up and decide to no longer be depressed. One who is depressed often wakes up and feels as if they have nothing to live for--feels as if there is nothing that will excite them or make them happy. All of the things in their life that … Continue reading For those who understand.
The dissociation of you and your habitual tendencies assists in eluding my mind from negativity. Your obsessive behavioral patterns would extract all life and spirit from anything you were close to. Now, there is nothing to suppress me from conquering the inner demons you brought upon me.
I sit and wonder how I could be so oblivious to some things. I am oblivious out of love. If I feel some way for you, it will not be shaken so easily. For me to actually, finally realize that something is unhealthy and it is time to let it go takes so much from … Continue reading I am enough.
As the crop waits to ripen for harvest, my heart waits for you. In the cold of winter when you wilt from lack of strength, it is me you long for. The green growth is inseparably bound to the the dark roots as I am to you. Among all of the toxic pesticides, there you … Continue reading The Cold
As one would awake from a deep sleep--dazed and confused, my mind tends to wander with no apparent destination like one who has been revived. It wanders in search of affirmation and explanation as to why I am misunderstood. The metamorphosis that has taken place in my life goes unnoticed. With all that is heavy … Continue reading Metamorphosis
Emboss and embroider me with your egotistical tendencies. Taste my abundance of love that envelops your flesh and allow it to clog your mind. Choke on this intuition and lament for all you have done.
I am no longer in your grasp for you to claim that you love me. I no longer have to conform to your behavior and destructive mannerisms. I am no longer a possession of yours to be used then tossed out. Your hysterical mind has always tried to dominate situations. Control is all you know. Our … Continue reading You Hurt
I am mad at God. I am mad at God when it is my own fault. I am the only one to blame for my anger. I know these things, yet I am still mad. Knowingly ignoring signs He sent me due to my ignorant mind believing everything was going to work out as it … Continue reading Implicit Anger
Hate is a feeling derived from within ones mind. No one is born knowing hate. Hate can be overcome--it was not here from the beginning. No emotion is instilled in us but love. From the beginning, we are loved and taught to love in ways that may be direct or indirect. Even when you tell yourself … Continue reading To Hate