you, the deity i worship. you being the biggest mistake. the one i bowed down and shed my tears to. i worshiped you like the wolf the moon and woke up praying like the tree does to the sun. blessing it for the existence of life. night and dawn conjoined. the state of mind i was left in … Continue reading Deity of the night, of mine.
You kissing me right before banging your head on the wall while screaming redrum, redrum, redrum. That is the way I wish to leave through destruction and chaos. You run down Beale street naked and end up visiting a voodoo fairy with a beer in your hand and nachos on your face. Or … Continue reading Redrum
on my mind the constant feeling of you you enjoyed drifting far out of your mind i stayed here lonely while you drifted far hunched over the toilet to let tears fall using the silence to scream in my head tearing myself apart like you left me … Continue reading Rewiring a Heart Drawing
You say you like me, you like me you say, but do you like me like you say? Do you like me, or do you like when I do the things you say? When you say touch me there and keep going and then I do as you say, you certainly like me. When I … Continue reading Realistic Dreams Full of Fantasies
Like a glass that is half empty, half full, so is the heart that lies within. The malnourished heart and soul that lacks so much continues to draw from others for energy and love. The broken soul that continues to dip into other sources to compensate for all it never received only breaks more. The … Continue reading Fill Me
From you, she drew it all. She took a deep breath and drew you into herself. From you, she was able to be all she envisioned From you, she grew. When she could not make the climb, it was you she clung to. She held onto you for her life. Then you let her down. … Continue reading You were not the end.
Am I a woman if I care for you? If I cater to your every need and bow down to you--worshiping you. If I instead chose to align you into the proper position of power does that make me a woman? If I stand up for myself and know how to refrain from your control … Continue reading What Makes Me
Accelerate so you can ruin everything faster. Slowly point and aim so you will not miss. Allow me to serve as your target guiding you towards what you need to pierce. Perforate me with your words. The same words that bound us in lies, allow them to disclose the truth. Embrace the feeling of death. … Continue reading Let me be your target.
Emotional abuse is often overlooked because it shows no damaging outward signs. No one on the outside can see how it is actually affecting your mind and everyday life. If you have not been in this position, you have no clear idea of how it hurts and damages you. No one chooses to go through … Continue reading Abuse
I sit and wonder how I could be so oblivious to some things. I am oblivious out of love. If I feel some way for you, it will not be shaken so easily. For me to actually, finally realize that something is unhealthy and it is time to let it go takes so much from … Continue reading I am enough.