Accelerate so you can ruin everything faster. Slowly point and aim so you will not miss. Allow me to serve as your target guiding you towards what you need to pierce. Perforate me with your words. The same words that bound us in lies, allow them to disclose the truth. Embrace the feeling of death. … Continue reading Let me be your target.
I am no longer in your grasp for you to claim that you love me. I no longer have to conform to your behavior and destructive mannerisms. I am no longer a possession of yours to be used then tossed out. Your hysterical mind has always tried to dominate situations. Control is all you know. Our … Continue reading You Hurt
I am mad at God. I am mad at God when it is my own fault. I am the only one to blame for my anger. I know these things, yet I am still mad. Knowingly ignoring signs He sent me due to my ignorant mind believing everything was going to work out as it … Continue reading Implicit Anger
My mind is yearning for a reason to see the good in you--to forgive you. I am the one facing the repercussions of your love. You are toxic and have continued to degrade me even after losing me. You lost me. I did not push you away. Not once. Your heart is not pure, yet mine … Continue reading Separation
The worst part about losing you is how my heart is now annihilated and I have no one who understands what I am feeling. You were a part of me. You were my person and now I feel so alone. No matter the circumstances, you were always there to talk if I needed you. I … Continue reading Stage Two
You have changed so much. I pray that you will become a better person. Better to your standards. But in order for any change to be made, you first have to realize that there is an underlying problem within you. That problem has always been there. You dismiss it and label it as something other than what … Continue reading Gone
Where would I be without this blog? Probably somewhere curled up in a dark hole. Blogging is my therapy. I am able to express myself through writing better than verbal conversations. Writing has been my saving grace. Besides investing myself in God and daily devotions, this is my way to vent all of my built-up thoughts … Continue reading My Public Diary
While you are out at night, I am at home rotting in my thoughts. You are out doing as you wish and I sit here thinking about you. I think about how I will get through this hard time you have brought upon me. You still have friends who think you are an amazing person. … Continue reading You Show No Love
At the end of the day, you reign my heart. You are my person who furnishes me in ways I did not know were possible. You make me feel confident in myself and support me in all I do. I love you dearly--you mean the world to me.
From the time I began school up until now when I am about to begin my postsecondary education, testing and unreasonable expectations are all that have been placed in front of me. Students are expected to have their life together and know if they would rather be a surgeon or social worker by the time they can walk--slight over … Continue reading The Education System